“We have nothing to fear but fear it’s self”
By Maurice Asselin
Ever since I can remember I have been fascinated with the human animal! At the age of sixty- four I feel that I’m qualified. Why now? Why not! I have had a total transformation of mind body and soul! What qualifies me to say that is a reasonable question for sure? The most observed human being has been me! I have been clean and sober for twenty- five years and have recently started by journey into the rest of my life. The deaths of two of my closest female friends have forced me to look closely at myself. My live in partner of eight years took her life on November 20 1992.
My friend of eleven years past away July 21 2005 from complications set on by breast cancer. We by mutual consent did not cohabitate in the same dwelling.
Both of these women had their internal demons. Not demonic as in the sense of being possessed or wicked. I to fought my own demons for years. One man’s demon is an-other’s denial. I do not give credence to any religious organization or biblical references to impact my statements. Internal anxiety and panic is like a demon that takes over our mental state. I had a sever heart attack on September 8 2005. If there is such a thing as divine intervention, however I give science my utmost gratitude for saving my life. Why I’m still alive is a question I often ask. Not that I don’t want to be alive, however I have come to terms with my mortality. Most humans have the natural survival instincts.
Does prayer and a belief in a supernatural power change any circumstances of our lives? Does the science of psychology or psychiatry heal us and make us well? Fear is the corrosive thread that plagues all living things man or beast. Does exemption of fear make us well?
I know of no human being or animal that is void any kind of fear! We all suffer from one form or an-other. No matter what steps we may take to preserve our own sanity, it’s an inside job! Our options are simple we live our die! I had to stop fighting everything and everybody simple but not easy. If ever I thought I had full control of my life’s circumstances, that was made very clear the day I was suffering the pain of a heart attack! Has my life changed as the result of that experience, not really, however I’m happy to have been given the privilege of continuing the challenges of daily life! I gave up on the idea that I would at anytime loose control.
We don’t loose control however the fear sets in disabling us to take or have control!
I may, as well give in to the idea that fear will always be part of my daily living.
